I love it when shit hits the fan... especially when you are not the cause of it ... just the catalyst that brings it forth. I don't like hurting my friends but I feel that people deserve to know the truth. So I feel like a shit because I was honest... but ... argh... I am so fucking wishy washy.

I havent been to therapy in forever and I am starting to feel the pressure building because I have had no release. I don't really trust anyone enough to sit down and talk to them and none of my past releases are helping anymore. I am tired.

Eric and I called it quits.. the situation just got to weird... but at least I got a good friend out of it all.

Alan is in the picture...but I am not sure how yet.

Other than that I walk the beaten path trying to dodge the bombs... getting nailed more often than not and I am torn between being the bitch who doesnt give a fuck and the bleeding heart.
posted by lauren at 8:36 PM

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!

BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH!

I am so fucking sick of complications. Just when life is melo.. and nothing to dramatic is going on... just chill... whoops there goes that damn wrench throwing itself into the damn works. Eric's stupid ex girlfriend calls him every fucking two hours when she knows he is with me and he placates her up the ass everytime. It is annoying and they are both dragging me into their little web. I am just sick of stupid people. I mean I know I have been in almost this exact situation in her place and I didn't handle it so well... but that is why I am so frustrated... because now I know better. And she is like three years older than me so she should really know better.

She called him at like 1 in the monring yesterday to talk to him about her ceiling fan... and then when she asked him what he was doing... rather than hurt her feelings and say hanging out with me... he told her nothing... which bugged me to no end. Argh ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
posted by lauren at 9:11 AM